I hate how everything I asked of you was too much but you can do it for the new girl. Meeting her on your lunch breaks, stopping to see her on your way home, going out on dates. Why was it a horrible thing for me to want that and yet its so easy for you to do it for her without her asking. Was I just not what you really wanted?
So I was just told your girl called one of the guys on the rescue squad to come out and meet her and when he called and cursed out the guy that gave out his number she said “if he doesn’t want any of this then fuck him”.
Wow this is what you left me for? While you are at work she is out trying to fuck anything she can. Me when I was off I was either home waiting on you or with your sister. You leave someone faithful who worshiped the ground you walked for a slut that doesn’t care who she fucks.
Letting go and accepting the fact the person you fell in love with can be some of the most hurtful pain you ever deal with in your life. I know I haven’t been able to way or sleep from the pain.
Yet everyday it gets a little easier to breathe again. I’m not going to lie I still have hope they will wake up and see all this was a bunch of bullshit and call me but as much as I pray to God for that every day I do not think its going to happen.
Everyone tells me it will be ok and I’m stronger than I think and I just want to say I’m tired of being strong.
So I hear the girl you left me for isn’t sure she wants to be with you. She even went out of town with her ex bf for two days and you didn’t break up with her. She even told someone she was keeping you around til after court so she could get back with her ex.
That is what you left me for? You leave the person that loves you, does anything you ask, and wants to give you the world for someone who isn’t even sure she wants you? She goes out of town with her ex bf and you know for a fact and you leave me over a lie? What is really going on?
I keep getting my heartbroken by these young ass girls that have no idea what they want, what they are doing, how to be in a relationship, or how to make a relationship work. You can just smell the 21ness on them.
At that age all they care about is partying and having sex with as many different people as possible. At 30 I’m ready to be settled. I’m ready for a happy home complete with wife and kids.
Unfortunately I can’t find any lesbians my age I’m attracted to in this small ass area. All the lesbians are young college kids. It’s either wait for them to grow up and realize what they had or move.
The great thing about living in a city is most people do no know you. In the small ass town I live in everyone knows everyone and every day I learn something new about my self or something I did I don’t remember doing.
I actually live a pretty dull life. I go to work and when I’m off work I’m at home curled up reading. I only party on tupacs birthday which is once a year. I never club because I work weekends at a bar. Yet I’m called a party whore.
If I say hi or hang out with anyone I’m accused of sleeping with them. When I was waiting tables at Applebees it was said I was stripping and sleeping with a co worker there.
Most recently is the rumor that ruined my relationship. Someone lied and told the girl I loved that I was cheating on her with a black guy yet they couldn’t give her a name. We never found this mystery black guy. So she cheats on me, breaks up with me, then tells me why which is the black guy. She never confronted me on it, ir researched the validity she just cheated and dumped me.
She has since moved on to a girl completely opposite of me. Well she moved on to that girl and her best friend who I hear slapped her in a store. Yea she in a nice little love triangle. And I’m the one being accused of using a spoof app to text people and to stick typed letters in mail boxes. Despite that I can’t find an app that works and I have no idea where these girls live to do this. I tried to say finger print the shit but I’m over defending myself. Im not the one that cheated, I’m not the one sending texts and letters for drama. Look at your new little circle of cheating jealous hearts. Of course after three weeks some truth will come out.
Obviously people are gonna have more fun with my life than I am. I’m just finding myself and reaquainting myself with God. If this really is the last year before the end of the world I am making it count. My advice is dont believe most of what you hear in a small town. Imagination runs rampant from boredom and misery.
